my lifeline (no fancy scripture today, kids)

amidst a rather hefty schedule, God has managed to fill me with much peace and joy. i can't be more thankful for my church family back home. i knew the body of Christ was an amazing community, but i guess i never realized the benefits of growing close to those in ministries other than my own. seriously. God has definately blessed me tremendously with friends who are just as eager to hear what God has been doing on this campus as i am to hear what God's throwin down at theirs. i have never found so much comfort in such friendship before. maybe i'm just behind or something. it's only been since this summer that i've had a passion to hear what God's doing in other's lives, and it's only been since this summer that i've not been able to contain myself when talking about all God has begun in my life. it's a crazy thing that passion for God's heart. crazy.
i took a four hour prayer slot back home during a weekend stretch of 24-7 prayer - something i was almost reluctant to do given: a) it was from 3-7am and b) i had pulled an all-nighter only a couple nights prior. however, it was the most encouraging and peace-filled night of my month, i'm pretty sure.
i can't even begin to describe. i long so much for corporate (even on a small scale) prayer out here. it's my lifeline. i've been so encouraged by the prayer gatherings that todd has begun, and eagerly look forward to their growth. and. i can't even begin to express my excitement for the prayer room. gosh. i don't know why i'm so fueled by this. maybe. just maybe. it's because prayer was what brought me to life. ten years of wilderness. ten years of fruitlessness. ten years of religion. and finally....God drove me to such desperation and longing that prayer was the ONLY response. i couldn't stand my life and the fact that it had amounted to nothing. i so much wanted to do the right things, but i missed the point. wanting to do the right things is quite a bit different than desiring your heart to match God's and wanting a life that is profitable in His eyes. i could only attain that through MUCH prayer and seeking. day after day i prayed the same thing. over. and over. and over. not getting bored, but with each day, becoming more desperate and more determined. my life HAD to change. there was no question. and petitioning God to show me "what" and "how" was the ONLY way for it to happen.
maybe that's why i'm so obsessed with prayer, and - coupled with my other-orientedness and insane love for being around people (hah!) - maybe that's why corporate prayer speaks volumes to me. it's the world to hear those who minister along side you crying out to God for the same things you long to see him do on this campus. but alas, despite all my passionate words and pictures, i can't envoke this desire in anyone but myself. i would give anything to have long talks with people about all God is doing and to pray with people over ministries...even outside of my own. i don't want to go around talking sorority and campus church all the time with no answer of anyone else's ministries and passions in return. goodness. does anyone feel me?
hah. i should definatley be studying for a sociology exam right now...